I'd like to know how common it is among humans to get this feeling of presence, physical presence, of somebody whom it's quite impossible to really get close to. The presence so material that you keep looking over your shoulder and every time you feel as if you have just touched, smelled, heard... but it's a split second too late. You missed it again.
I get this sensation after a complex of occurrences. First, I accumulate images, sounds, and emotions. Then I have a dream. Last, I replay the dream in my head and I start feeling it. It has pervaded my senses and I cannot get rid of it no matter how exhausting it becomes after a while. It is so easy to lose connection with reality then, so easy to get confused, so hard to come back. I learnt how to induce this although it does not work every time and often not the way you expected or hoped so I tend to avoid it. Unless it's one of these days when I just cannot control myself. One of my weak days when I succumb, letting myself be exposed to things that do not make my life easier, not easier at all .
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