Undone

I can feel you
I can see you
I know what you are
I know what you do
You
I think you are getting away
I think I'm losing you
I don't know life without you
And you are already standing in the doorway
Ready to leave
You will not even look back
Why look at the grief
Why see the despair
Why relive the words
That never ever should have been said
Your dead eyes
Keep following me
Keep haunting me
Cannot sleep
Cannot breathe
Cannot live
I don't remember how a good night sleep feels like
My eyes burning, dry
My body carried through space and time
Somehow I'm moving
Somehow I'm speaking
Somehow I'm not crying
Impossibly alone
Trembling
Stupid
Weak
Heavy as lead
My hands are
Heavy as lead
My eyes are
Overflowing
With uncried tears
Untold grieves
Unshouted cries
Unlived pleasures
Undone
Unsaid
I have imagined dancing
I have imagined singing
I have nothing
I have nowhere
To go
This is where I'll stay then
Not wanted
Not loved
But...
Why can't you brush my hair away
Gently
Why can't you look straight in my eyes
Sweetly
And take my face in your hands
Softly
And pull me toward you
Slowly
And make me forget
About the time and place
Let me float
For just this minute...
Let me...